This month I have been focusing on the environment and how my thoughts and actions affect it, although, I have not been writing about it much. I have been in a quandary. This time of year is always packed with gardening duties: weeding, mulching and planting. The little tiny seedlings returning and fighting with the weeds for space in the garden make me glad for the restorative powers of nature. I help them along by giving them more space to grow and working the rain hardened soil around them. In doing so, I must kill. Is that fair? Is it spreading positive energy in the world? I read in a gardening book a while ago about a gardener who tried to make peace with all of nature and let the weeds grow along with his vegetables. Not wanting to use undue force against a naturally occurring plant or animal, he soon found that the weeds always win. His vegetables lost the battle if left to their own devices and failed to thrive and produce.

It’s not that I hate weeds. They do have good qualities. They’re resilient, opportunistic, longsuffering, faithful, strong and persistent. But they are awfully self-centered. I wouldn’t mind if they gave others a chance, but unrestrained, they would take over our whole yard. So I kill. And it is a personal, up close battle. One by one, I rip them out trying to totally eradicate them, roots and all. I do feel a slight twinge of guilt as I destroy life. And isn’t it egotistically judgmental to arbitrarily choose one life form over another? I try to make peace with this dilemma and find the positive in my actions. Maybe I am rationalizing my behavior, but the weeds I kill do provide nutrients to the soil as they decompose.

And always, I ponder how this applies to my own growth and becoming. I’m still working on that.

wild digitalis

wild digitalis

About dmdubay

Since retiring from Northwest Airlines and moving to the Pacific Northwest, I have more time to devote to writing. My first novel, "Tales of Two Sisters" was published over a year ago. I have been writing poetry for a long time and am attempting to collate my poetry into a short book, with pictures. A sequel to "Tales of Two Sisters" should be getting closer to completion soon. Gardening and tending the vineyard take a lot of time in the summer. Even though I love the outdoors, these activities do cut down on my writing. So I appreciate that wintertime allows me time to write. Writing, for me, is what brings things into focus and helps me to make sense of the things that life brings. It is a gift to me and I hope that it will be to you also.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged . Bookmark the permalink.

2 Responses to weeds

  1. Mary Ann Schradi says:

    I don’t think I have too much guilt about weeds. Even Christ made a reference to them. Pesty little things. But I so much enjoyed this blog. Makes you think.


  2. Nancy says:

    I believe this level of contemplation is proof that you do not have a 40+ hour job outside your home! LOL

    I hope you know I love you, Darlene, and can take my hopefully funny joke.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s